Monday Funday

Today is a good day!

I was late for work (by 5 min), the lady at the gas station was a total bitch when my card wouldn't read outside, all the men at work are in a mood today, we are short handed at work too. You would think that this would put me in a bad mood, but for some reason I feel very optimistic. I'm excited that tomorrow starts my half marathon training.

I even got Courtney, my office buddy to do it too! We'll see if she does but I'm excited because tomorrow I'm starting off with a walk/run of 2 miles. It doesn't jump past 3 miles until the end of the 4th week. So I have a month to get used to where I can run three miles. One running plan I came across said that to do a half you have to be able to run 3 right from the gate, and this one didn't say that. If I get back into the running swing of things I think I can do 3 miles running in a month.

Last week I said that I started weight watchers and so far its been going good. Saturday I went to the farmers market where I bought an over-ripe watermelon (that didn't get eaten because it was mushy), quart of blueberries, two kinds of tomatoes (yellow and green), some UFO shaped squash and bison bacon burgers (YES AND THEY ARE AMAZING) and one blueberry muffin.

I'll confess I ate the muffin for breakfast. I had planned on eating one of the burgers for lunch and some tortilla chips with it and blueberries and salsa. Yeah I just can't keep chips of any kind in the house unless its a (see 1) single serving bag. I just pig out on them. Chips are my weakness. I ate a whole bag on Saturday plus all but one of the burgers which I split between dinner and lunch. Yeah ate way too much. I wasn't going to count the points but I grudgingly did it because I paid for the damn program so I might as well be honest with it. After all, I'm the only one judging myself because I'm the only one that can see it. It was way too many points for comfort, I used up all of my weekly points and some of my activity points. Now I have to be good until Wednesday when I get more weekly points. I guess its good that I ate them though because in the past I didn't, and I know that they are there to be eaten.

How you lose weight and eat all this food is beyond me! Free points for fruit, 42 extra points to eat during the week and any activity you earn too. Should you eat activity points? I don't know?

Sunday was much better, I ate my three meals and didn't really feel hungry for much else during the day.

Tonight my plan is to take the dog out and run/walk a mile. That's it just a mile. I want to do something to get myself going for the week. I also need to mow the lawn...

Funny story. So it has been raining constantly for the past month or two and every time I go to mow the lawn it rains. My yard is a jungle! Some of the grasses are not quite to my knees. Part of this is me being lazy, the other part is that I'm not home much and when I am I don't want to mow. Well... my landlord got a notice from the city saying that the yard needed to be mowed. Yeah. So I race home from work on Friday to make sure that the city didn't go and mow the lawn, because the notice was dated from the 16, and my landlady was out of town so it got forwarded to her vacation address... so I was going to have to pay like 400 if the city did it. Well luckily the city doesn't work on the weekends nor in the rain and it was raining on Friday again. First thing Saturday morning I got up and got the weed eater going and I got about 10 min and the battery went out.

The other battery doesn't work at all. I get like 2 minutes on it. I wonder if its the charger... anyway it looks like someone went out with a big pair of scissors and just started chopping randomly around the yard...  I knew I only had a little while so I wanted to get as much of the yard as I could! Its funny but not. So tonight I HAVE to mow the lawn. That comes first, then maybe I'll go out for a walk with the dog.

Summer Daze

As I stare at this blank blog with the little flashing thingie that moves when I type I'm kinda at a loss. Even though on the way to work this morning I said I would write a blog post today.

Kinda at a loss describes my whole life (except the weight loss part) I'm between school quarters, my husband is traveling, I don't know what to do next and I dread dread dread going back to school in the fall. I got a job, and it was supposed to only be for the summer... and now I don't want to leave. Like so many things in my life I'm faced with school which I have sunk two years, a lot of money, heart ache and tears into with the fact that I don't want to go back. I love my job. I really do. I work for a franchise and I get to take pictures, be creative, organize and do office work. Is it what I went to college for? No. Do I still love it? Yes.

So that's where things stand. I'll go to school in the fall, mainly because I committed to doing it and its not something that will be easily picked up again someplace else, and also I just want to be done. One more year... thats my mantra right now... One more year.

In all of this I've not lost a single pound. I always have great intentions. Somehow they always fall through. I'm not going to lie I feel disgusting. I remember last year going into August I felt great and I sure do wish now I had just kept going. But thats the weight loss story of my life!

Not to be a downer today. That wasn't my original intension. I'm back to Weight Watchers I think. I always seem to have some kind of success with it, even if they are robbing me of my money. I am also kinda between workouts. My coworker bought Insanity and I said I would do it with her. I like the calorie burn for only 40 minutes, but it hurts me. My joints hurt and I'm terrified that I'm going to hurt my knees to where I can't do anything at all because of all the jumping and stuff. I don't mind being muscle sore, but I sure don't want to be joint sore because I did something to myself. I also don't want to be a pussy about it. I know there is some pain in this, but I don't want to really get hurt!

I was snooping on someone's Facebook this morning and saw that they liked a page for The Dirty South Marathon. I can't run a marathon yet and I have only ever run 1 5k, no 10ks or anything even though I can bike a 10k. But when I started reading about it I was like... how cool would it be to be able to run a half marathon? What is stopping me from trying? So I looked up a running schedule. I haven't run all summer, but I was running when I was in school. One of the schedules I found was for 14 weeks. This marathon is 15 weeks away. It occurred to me that I could do this! I don't have much time but I think I could make time to do this. I work 7-5 everyday and have 30 minute commute to work and back each way. It makes for a really long day.

I have a hard time getting up at 5:30 am for work, so I don't know if I could get up earlier to run. I don't want to give all my evenings away, but if its the only option I have, I guess I'll be eating dinner later than I want and not having free time. Maybe I just need to lose the mindset that I'll have a lot of free time and think that the running is my free time and that I should enjoy it. I spent a lot of time last summer at the gym, but I haven't wanted to go this summer, but I don't lose weight unless I'm exercising.

I'm going to look at the half marathon training more today and see if this is something I really want to do. But I think I'm going to do it. Screw my own excuses. I can do this :D